My Thoughts

Free Yourself

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The standstill in our lives caused by the outbreak of COVID-19 might be a blessing in disguise. With the dawn of the our first light our lives have kept pace with the ever changing world around us, scampering, running and adapting with it physically as well as mentally. Gradually, keeping up with the pace of change our lives have become fast-paced. Our lives had been going on in a single loop of thought process, i.e. how to keep up with the change, however, the outbreak of COVID-19 acted as a break on the loopy lives that we were living.

Being  a student caught in the deep ocean of competitiveness and constantly aspiring for success, the sudden and abrupt halt to my daily life was a bit odd at first. With the government issuing a complete lock-down of all the services except the necessary ones and postponement of the upcoming exams, the me that was completely focused on my studies got frozen in time. Over the last three months of lock-down I got a little me time in 24 years of my life when i was not trying to keep up with the world. Spending my time with myself exploring various possibilities within me, came face to face with my thoughts.

My thoughts at first seemed very vague, like a haze, which with time got clearer. Spending time alone with my thoughts made me feel closer to a clarity in my desires. Up until now my desires were guided by the outside world ignoring the within. In this time when the world came to stand still and the competitiveness on a vacation, I finally got some time to know myself by looking inwards for a very on time without worrying about the outside. Hidden inside the huge frame of my body their lives a tiny , fragile, unadulterated, thoughtless, fearless, playful, happy and smiling me. This me doesn't know of the twisted nature of the world around, that twists you, tosses you,  until it turns you into a tool to do its bidding, then its accepts you. The me inside is kept safe from the outside world and is oblivious of its ruthlessness. It wants to be happy, have fun, play, study, eat, jump around in joy until he is tired and then sleep soundly to wake up the next day to do what it loves not caring what the people will think. This me only wants to be happy, which doesn't requires to become a certain someone or have a certain something or to reach a grand pedestal of public recognition or any materialistic desires, just happy.

Is being happy such a difficult task? Is it really impossible to be happy? Can't happiness be the only absolute truth?

IS IT REALLY THAT DIFFICULT TO FIND YOURSELF WITHIN YOU?

I, for one, don't think so. All it takes is a break from this cut-throat world where competitiveness takes a back seat and let yourself be free.